For I cant see you when I'm gone...

Warning: Winter officially started for us with a welcoming chilly wind and jackets. Hell yes it was rattling cold for the past few days for me because "winter is cold for those with cold memories" This is to no particular person or a thing! I have been retrieved from day dreaming since my kind grandma passed away and endowed myself with the capacity to reason and answer the the 5 W (why,who,when,what,where and came along the way Mr. WILL)

If I die today with uncertainty
will i be quelled with what i have done so far?
will i repent of things that i never bother to change though i had the chance?
will i ever be accompany by someone during the 49 days?
will i get a chance to rewind a day to say sorry, love you and see you tomorrow?
will i be awake one time before they cremate my body?
will i open to someone about my deepest secret while taking my last breath?
will i get to go back in my mom's womb and reborn again?
will i be left with no one surrounding me during my last few breaths?
will i have a last ballroom dance with my dad? (yes, i love him so much that no guy can take his place)
will i be kissed like Snow White and wake up from the mellow dream?
will i get to speak those last words that held in me for so long?
or will i be punished for keeping it inside me, just me...BUT listen!

Whether you love me or I am just a tryst to you         

If i die today, dont shed a tear

Cry for me while I'm here

For I cant see you when I'm gone... remember!

Cry = Take care