I prayed and wish I could sleep on her lap for once but how unfortunate am I. She left me without saying a word. May your soul rest in peace grandma (84yrs)
Death is this deep pit inside my head that I can’t dig myself out of
Knowing that I will never see her shining face again
She would walk into the room and it would instantly light up
I try to think of beautiful memories that have passed
But all that comes to mind is the bleak, depressing future
The unknown is what makes me sad
The uncertainty of what happens next is what draws me in
What happens at holidays and family get togethers
Who makes the best "chur-ship" and send it all the way to Canada?
Whose there to give me warm, cosy giant hugs and tell me things I wana hear
What happens from here?
Death is a great thing for the person who is in a much better place
But we are all left here on this unforgiving world (samsara)
I lay awake in bed thinking of all the things that ill never get to do or say to her
But tears don’t come out,
Tears never came out
Because I know that she is in a beautiful place
Uncertainty scares all of us
But that’s why I’m not scared
That’s why I’m not crying
Because I know she is looking over us smiling
I know that she is walking with me every step of the way
And I’m certain that one day when my timer on life runs out in this cyclic existence
She will be there waiting at heavens gates with open arms saying
“I Love You So Much”
Mi Lue Rinchen Gyokpo dang Nyur Du Thop Par Sho
from your sisters, brothers, children, and grandchildren
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